[ Especially when she keeps being given reminders of her. She spares a long look at her chest of belongings, wherein lies the flute she received as a gift. ]
I try to distract myself. To live despite my longing for her. I think of how she would tease me for missing her, and choose to go about my life how she would want me to.
I already do all of that, it doesn't help. [ He never expected to ache for the genuine friendship of Verity so much. The pal-parade of the Avengers is estranging on purpose and also by accident, exacerbated by Loki's living conditions. He should definitely move out soon. ] I think I've substituted her company with Stark's.
Then you have already proceeded farther than I have. Short of pleading with the portal to bring your lost one here, I dio not know what more there is for you to do.
...It is hard, to live without the ones we love. But somehow we must do it anyway.
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What I mean is, she's very grounded. Imagining a possible escape route from her problems via feeling displaced isn't something she would do, or could do, or even accept as possible.
It's complicated. [ When he doesn't want to spill Verity's secrets, anyway.
Flopping on his sofa, he rubs his eyes and faces the fact he can't lie to himself no matter how sweet the distraction of Tony's company is. ]
I don't want to form an attachment to Stark, he won't stick around like she did.
[ Angela considers her words carefully before speaking, knowing Loki will heed what she says. ]
I do not think it is healthy or right to think of Stark as a replacement for your friend. [ Is she a friend? Or does Loki feel for her the way Angela feels for Sera? She isn't sure. ] You must approach the two separately, and not let one relationship cloud or tarnish the other. There is nothing wrong with forming an attachment to Stark, knowing that it will not last. You simply must enter with that knowledge, and let the relationship be what it is.
[ Silent and pensive as she speaks, a hum is her answer as Loki picks at his tshirt with intense concentration. ]
I should tell him, then? I don't ... I don't want to lie about any part of this.
[ He much prefers it these days when he can be honest with those closest to him, recognising that Verity's lie detection has all but trained him for the better. Eager to be the person she respected. ]
Angela! I ... I both admire and fear for you. Luckily, I know a necromancer who can stop any undead from attacking you should Hela try and launch an attack here, if ever she arrives. 'Cos she would.
[ Líadan can't quite help her lips quirking into something of a smile at that voice recording. True, she doesn't know Angela hardly at all, but that it's active means she's likely still here and herself in the wake of the chalice sorting business. Of course, it could be awkward. She's actually fairly sure it will be, what with the fireflies having likely been responsible for things from at least one side in retrospect, but that's a bridge to be crossed when they get to it. For now -- ]
Angela, it's Líadan. I apologize if I happened to catch you at a poor time, but I wanted to see that you were well in light of recent events. It is my understanding the chalice's presence in the portal affected a great deal many.
[ To the point of immense displeasure in some cases. She's not entirely certain Angela was affected, but... ]
I was not. My involvement in the effort to return the chalice through the portal limited my time, but I did meet some who were affected. It seems to have been a difficult ordeal for some.
[ For many possibly. She doesn't pretend to wholly understand the consequences such a transformation might have on a person. At day's end, a person cannot live in what has been or may be. They are now. They live now. Regardless of what was, these truths are. She does find herself pausing, however. Angela has family here? To have had family affected... ]
I hope you and yours have had an easier time of it.
[ She may not have family here herself, but she does have friends who were affected and that had affected her. It seems somewhat distant for the hint of dread rising from the pit of her stomach in the wake of butterflies as she returns to Angela's initial statement. She thinks she knows what about. That knowledge doesn't make it any more pleasant, of course. ]
It was... interesting. The effects were varied, from what I have seen of my own experience and that of those around me. My sometimes-brother was younger than his normal self. I lived a life that could have been mine had one crucial event gone differently.
[ She is, all things said and done, glad that her life had not gone the way the chalice showed her. She cannot imagine living a life so lonely and empty, without Sera in it.
Which brings her to her next point. ]
Yes. I... Hm. [ She takes a deep breath, and begins again. ] When we first met, I was under the influence of some sort of toxin that caused me to be a bit more... open and forward with you than I would have been had I been in my right mind. I'm afraid it caused me to say things, to do things I should not have done.
I led you on, before. The truth is, my heart is deeply committed to another, though she waits for me in my own universe. I... feel as though I have betrayed her in acting so close with you.
[ Honestly, Angela had not noticed the addition of another Anthony Stark to their floor, she spends so little time there. But the offer from Loki of any apartment is intriguing. On the one hand, she would appreciate more privacy than the communal housing allows. But on the other, it goes against everything in her to accept such a handout without giving something in return. ]
I would like to... [ But there must be an equivalent exchange. ] What could I offer you in return?
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[ Especially when she keeps being given reminders of her. She spares a long look at her chest of belongings, wherein lies the flute she received as a gift. ]
I try to distract myself. To live despite my longing for her. I think of how she would tease me for missing her, and choose to go about my life how she would want me to.
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...It is hard, to live without the ones we love. But somehow we must do it anyway.
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Neither am I, yet I was not given a choice.
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What I mean is, she's very grounded. Imagining a possible escape route from her problems via feeling displaced isn't something she would do, or could do, or even accept as possible.
It's complicated. [ When he doesn't want to spill Verity's secrets, anyway.
Flopping on his sofa, he rubs his eyes and faces the fact he can't lie to himself no matter how sweet the distraction of Tony's company is. ]
I don't want to form an attachment to Stark, he won't stick around like she did.
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I do not think it is healthy or right to think of Stark as a replacement for your friend. [ Is she a friend? Or does Loki feel for her the way Angela feels for Sera? She isn't sure. ] You must approach the two separately, and not let one relationship cloud or tarnish the other. There is nothing wrong with forming an attachment to Stark, knowing that it will not last. You simply must enter with that knowledge, and let the relationship be what it is.
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I should tell him, then? I don't ... I don't want to lie about any part of this.
[ He much prefers it these days when he can be honest with those closest to him, recognising that Verity's lie detection has all but trained him for the better. Eager to be the person she respected. ]
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Thank you, sister. You know, if we set up a 'Little Asgard' here and you took the mini throne, I would be behind you.
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Please, no. I already hold one crown I have no intention of wearing. Do not give me another.
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[ ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ ]
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[ Balder may as well be a milksop. ]
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But besides, Angela doesn't much care. She got what she came for. ]
She will not be an issue. I defeated her once, I could do it again.
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Whew! I'm glad you're here with me.
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I suppose... if I have to be trapped here with any member of our family, I am glad it's you.
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Let's go out and do something, exploring or otherwise. We'd make a great team! And I have scads of cash to help us prepare, if the need arises.
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Angela, it's Líadan. I apologize if I happened to catch you at a poor time, but I wanted to see that you were well in light of recent events. It is my understanding the chalice's presence in the portal affected a great deal many.
[ To the point of immense displeasure in some cases. She's not entirely certain Angela was affected, but... ]
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[ She sighs, weary of this conversation already but knowing it's one she must have. ]
Yes, I was affected by the chalice as well. As were my brothers. ...Were you?
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[ For many possibly. She doesn't pretend to wholly understand the consequences such a transformation might have on a person. At day's end, a person cannot live in what has been or may be. They are now. They live now. Regardless of what was, these truths are. She does find herself pausing, however. Angela has family here? To have had family affected... ]
I hope you and yours have had an easier time of it.
[ She may not have family here herself, but she does have friends who were affected and that had affected her. It seems somewhat distant for the hint of dread rising from the pit of her stomach in the wake of butterflies as she returns to Angela's initial statement. She thinks she knows what about. That knowledge doesn't make it any more pleasant, of course. ]
You said you had been meaning to speak to me?
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[ She is, all things said and done, glad that her life had not gone the way the chalice showed her. She cannot imagine living a life so lonely and empty, without Sera in it.
Which brings her to her next point. ]
Yes. I... Hm. [ She takes a deep breath, and begins again. ] When we first met, I was under the influence of some sort of toxin that caused me to be a bit more... open and forward with you than I would have been had I been in my right mind. I'm afraid it caused me to say things, to do things I should not have done.
I led you on, before. The truth is, my heart is deeply committed to another, though she waits for me in my own universe. I... feel as though I have betrayed her in acting so close with you.
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[ And leaving Angela with Stark seems . . . needlessly terrible. ]
Would you like to depart as well?
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I would like to... [ But there must be an equivalent exchange. ] What could I offer you in return?
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[ His response is easy. ]
Magic can only do so much and you have better reach with your arms than I.
[ Well. That's debatable, but Loki fully believes in his sister's prowess. Maybe even trust it. ]
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Very well. Offer me shelter, and you shall have my protection. In our home, or wherever you may need it. No harm will come to you.
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Thank you.
I shall make the arrangements.
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[ She doesn't have much. Some clothes, her weapons and armor. Her flute. ]
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